I feel like my life is over, there´s no leftovers of what I was, I feel something unpredictable, something victimal and I can´t take this pain away, I can´t make me feel ok. I need to save myself but I don´t know how, cause I won´t survive in this way, cause I need someone to stay, I just want they to hold my hand, I never felt so weak before, I´ve always been so strong, they don´t see how I feel now, they just think I just don´t care at all but I´m so worried about that, that I don´t know how long I could hide. I just want to sit and cry but I don´t really know why.I don´t know if this is true, but if it is I´d die, cause I can´t stand living in this way, I just can´t say what I need to say, I wanna dissappear , I wanna come back the time and make everything alright. What did I do wrong? How can I repair that? Tell me something good cause I can´t stand this anymore, I´m gonna explode, my eyes are tearing, my heart is beating and I keep breathing so slowly